Leaving it Blank

Over the last few days, I’ve changed my Instagram bio 4 times. Have you noticed? Of course not. No one would.

I’ve been meditating on the question “Who am I really?” When I meditate on a question, or chew on something, I call it my macro-meditation.

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Let’s age ourselves, shall we? In Excel, back in the day, if you wanted to automate tasks, you created something called a macro. When you created a macro, the computer recorded keystrokes and mouse clicks that made your life so much easier because you were working on spreadsheets for 40 hours a week.

Back to my meditation.

In this dwelling place where the computer is my brain and the recorded keystrokes are the answers to the question I am working with.

Who am I really, to uncover that I am a wife. To uncover that I am a mother. To uncover that I am Puerto Rican American. To uncover that I am a friend. To uncover that I am a yogi. To uncover that I am an opera singer. To uncover that I am a tarot reader. To uncover that I am a teacher. To uncover that I am afraid. To uncover that I am insecure. To uncover that I am on and on and on and on…

to then “poof”! Nothing.

What is that? The me behind the me. What is that like?

And I carry this essence created by my macro-meditation beside me like a friend while I go about my day, make meals for my family, pick up prescriptions, go to yoga, study, bake cookies for the kids, and wash dishes, you get the picture.

Where do I go with this essence? Who will understand it? Who can help me nourish it, and care for it? Help it grow? How do I even explain it? Are there others who understand without my trying to put it into words? Wait. Are there others?

Are there others?

There are. They are in communities with other women. Other women who remember the oath their mothers and grandmothers before them made to one another to hold space for the essence. To listen and not judge. To share without fear of withholding the empathy our essence needs. To cry. No. Not just to cry, but to cry without feeling like you have to say sorry. Because you don’t. There are no apologies here, only acceptance, and deep commitment to your life’s path, your essence’s evolution. We need to be cradled in such a way that we can receive healing energy, and not always be the one that gives it.

This idea had been shifting around my consciousness like an etch a sketch shook clean. Last night, I watched a live stream of Guru Jugat give a talk for RA MA TV. Guru Jugat spoke of women in community, and how we need one another because we are created to handle the unique and special energy that we create. There was more to it, obviously, but to say this (totally over simplified and generalized because I’m not watching it again to transcribe it #sorrynotsorry) statement resonated with me, would be an understatement. Watch it. I was belly laughing in bed, good.

Before sitting down at my laptop, I read this (and highly recommend you do the same) from Steph at The Daily Hunch about the Lunar Eclipse in Aquarius and Mercury Retrograde in Leo happening this week:

And in case you thought there wasn’t a ton of saving grace in this week’s astrology, check it out: a Venus/Pluto trine, also exact on the day of the eclipse. Even under the somewhat alienating auspices of this Aquarian moon, we’re unlikely to feel completely alone in all of this, because when Venus harmonizes with Pluto, it’s easier to share our shame, fears, and worries with others — and even nudge each other along on the path to rebirth. You might be processing a lot right now, and you might, like the water bearer, need to steal off to the river alone to do so. Just know that there’s a village waiting for you when you get back.

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I still don’t know what my bio could say. I haven’t found anything that can encapsulate it. Maybe I shouldn’t even care that much. But when I’m given the task of trying to succinctly subscribe who I am, I go blank. I don’t know who I am yet. I haven’t figured it out.

Magical Summer School

I didn’t realize that I was creating a really magical summer school sitch for myself, as I was gobbling up all the goodness being offered this summer. Turns out, I wasn’t looking at the timing, just making sure that I signed up for what interested me. They’re all kicking off, or have already kicked off this summer!

From Divination to Muggle Studies, I’ve been busy. I thought I would share what I am studying / fascinated / obsessed with should you feel called to do the same.

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Lindsay Mack has offered some intensive workshops for tarot the last couple of months. Trauma and the Tarot, The Court Cards, The Swords, and Court Card Immersion. You cannot sign up for these, as they won’t be back until next year. I wouldn’t leave you high and dry though. She is close to opening enrollment for her full 8 week course, Tarot for the Wild Soul. Tarot for the Wild Soul runs from September 6th – October 25th, 2018 and enrollment for the course opens to the public on July 24th. I was going to take it, but made a last minute swap after speaking with my guidance counselor (aka intuition). You’ll see what I mean. If you are interested, I would highly recommend taking her course!

Follow @wildsoulhealing on Instagram

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The Herbal Academy has incredible offerings for all things plant related! I cannot believe I just found this one night. Isn’t it how it always works? I made sure to <a href=”http://Preview Lesson from the Introductory Herbal Course“>preview the Introductory Herbal Course before I added it to my summer schedule.

The interface is super intuitive, they provide downloads with a syllabus, recommended book list broken out by how far along on your plant medicine journey you are on, and a private Facebook group. The content is easily digestible and here’s the best part, in my opinion anyway: you can’t move on to the next unit in the course, unless you have an 80% or above on each quiz. Now, can I get an amen! Only the serious need apply here.

FREE – Becoming an Herbalist Course is live, enroll by August 5!

If you aren’t ready to invest in this course (i.e. you are overloaded with summer plans – in a good way – and maybe would rather wait till the fall to start, check out this FREE mini-course offering: <a href=”http://Free Becoming an Herbalist Mini Course“>Becoming an Herbalist. Enrollment opens July 19th!!

Follow Herbal Academy on Instagram.

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The Daily Hunch Academy. I found Steph like you find anyone else who’s super into the stars (is that even true?), on Instagram. I loved her feed because all of her forecasts were so spot on for me. When she said she was offering The Daily Hunch Academy, I was bummed because I missed enrollment. I kept up with her, and when she opened enrollment again, I jumped on it.

The content is super broken down and easy to navigate, but I think the assignments are the most fun. I don’t want to spill the tea here, because I hate spoilers. Needless to say, her assignments have brought the heavenly bodies down to earth and made me laugh at myself while doing it. She also shares a preview on her site and I snagged that to keep me satiated as I waited for enrollment to open! It looks like you can still register for this 4 month, well-paced-because-astrology-is-really-hard course so if you’re interested, I’ll see you in the private Facebook group for this!

Follow The Daily Hunch on Instagram.

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Muggle Studies

Um, so, your girl is so deep into this Kundalini shhh that it’s crazy. I took a workshop, and loved it. Then whatever-whatever happened (read up!) and I didn’t go back. Zoom to three months later, I went back to a workshop on intuition and 👏let👏me👏tell👏you👏 I am on a high like no other. So much so, that I took the money that I budgeted for the Tarot for The Wild Soul course, that I have been saving up for for months, MONTHS! and applied it to the Aquarian Women Leadership Society Experience, August 3-5.

Brooklyn is going camping!!! No-air-conditioning-using-the-bath-house-near-the-cafeteria camping.

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From Guru Jugat Instagram feed!

My Kundalini teacher, Devi Ananda, are going to road trip it for almost four hours and spend 3 days in upstate New York learning with Guru Jugat, and meeting others from all over the world! Yoga, meditation, talks, breakout sessions, s’mores? YES!!!

I’ve signed up for RA MA TV, and get to the studio early, just to practice.

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You know that I am already working on my budget to sign up for the Aquarian Women Leadership Society subscription when I get back from camping with my friends.

We also purchased Guru Jugat’s book, Invincible Living and have been carrying around with us everywhere. I did the green diet on the last new moon and lost enough weight to kickstart my body into gear. I’ve only gained two pounds back so I am still under the 140 mark (which is a big difference in how it makes my back feel) and haven’t been here since last year. What? What’s the green diet? Why on the New Moon? GET THE BOOK. Required reading for my summer school!

If you want to audit my magical summer school sesh, follow them all on Instagram, turn on notifications and see what happens. See if anything resonates. Then, tell me all about what you think!

What are you interested in lately?

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